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Thursday, January 3, 2008
LAST NIGHT WAS THE MOST DISAPPOINTED NIGHT EVER - 2/JAN/2008. LAST NIGHT WE WERE HAVING OUR YOUTH MEETING AT ICA. IN THE AFTERNOON, I SMS TO DILLON AND ASK HIM WHETHER IS HE GOING FOR THE MEETING. HE DIDN'T REPLIED ME UNTIL 5.15PM. THEN I ASK HIM WHAT TIME IS HE GOING THEN HE SEND BACK TO ME 7.30PM. AFTER THAT I REPLIED CAN I MEET U AT THE MAIN GATE OF ICA. THEN HE DIDN'T REPLIED MY SMS. I WAS WONDERING DOES HE WANT TO MEET ME THERE OR NOT. WHEN I REACHED ICA ABOUT 7.20PM, I DIDN'T SEE HIM AROUND SO NO CHOICE BUT TO CALL HIM THEN HE SAID THAT HE IS UNPSTAIRS AT THE MAIN HALL. THEN I WENT UP, FIRST I WAS LOOKING AROUND CAN'T FIND HIM, AFTER A WHILE THEN I SAW HIM SITTING WITH HIS FRIENDS, THEN I KNOW TODAY IS NOT A GOOD DAY ANYMORE. ABSOLUTE CORRECT IS NOT A NICE DAY, FROM THE BEGINING OF THE MEETING UNTIL THE END HE ONLY TALK TO ME FOR 3 SENTENCES. THIS IS THE MOST DISAPPOINTED MOMENT I EVER HAD. THE WHOLE NIGHT I AM LISTENING IF NOT THEN IS PLAYING WITH MY GADGETS. WHEN I CAME OUT OF THE MEETING I WAS CURSING AND SWEARING IF ANYONE JUST TOUCH ME OR MAKE FUN OF ME. OTHER PEOPLE SEE ME ALSO SCARED. UNTIL I REMEMBERED WHAT IKEAD SENSEI SAID: "WE CAN'T SO FAST SAID THAT WE ARE LOSE THE BATTLE WE MUST FIGHT TILL THE END. HAVEN'T REACH THE LAST MINUTE IS NOT THE LAST DECISION AND WE CAN'T JUST GIVE UP LIKE THAT." WHEN WE ARE PRACTISING THIS BUDDHISM OR SUTRA I HEARD ONE OF THE GREAT LEADER - MR CHAN. SAID :"WE ARE NOT AFRAID OF LOOSING, BUT WE ARE AFRAID THAT PEOPLE CALLED YOU A CROWARD. WE MUST FIGHT TILL THE END UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE." SO I TOLD GOHONZON WHEN I AM CHATTING BEFORE GOING HOME. I TOLD THE FOLLOWING. "I AM GOING TO CHALLENGE THIS FRIENDSHIP, I WILL NOT GIVE UP SO EASY. I AM GOING TO STRENGTHEN UNTIL IT REALLY BECOME A UNSHAKABLE ONE. I AM GOING TO FIGHT TILL THE END NOT ONLY THAT I AM GOING TO DO MY KOSEN-RUFU AND CHANT MORE AND MORE. INCREASING FROM A SMALL LITTLE HOURS TO A LONGER." I WILL NOT FORGET THIS DAY, DURING SENSEI'S BIRTHDAY, HAVING OR NEED TO STRUGGLE UNTIL LIKE THAT. 02/JAN/2008
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++ kokarmeng nickname: monkeykorkor , 1. I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE IN THE PAST ALL THE NEGATIVE ACTIONS AND WORDS. THANK YOU FOR GOHONZON FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH GOOD BENEFITS IN THE PRESENCE. 2. FOR MY STUIDES IN 2008 & 2009 MUST BE THE BEST IN ORDER FOR ME TO SHOW THE POWER OF THE MYSTIC LAW- GOHONZON. I MUST GET TOP TEN IN POSITION IN MY CLASS LEVEL AND SCORE THE BEST FOR MYSELF. 3. DILLON NG YAN YANG MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME AND TREAT ME BETTER. 4. KAIYANG AND BUDI MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIENDS. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME.CALVIN CHONG CAN BE MY BEST FRIEND AND HE MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 5. CALVIN CHEONG MUST NOT BE ANGRY WITH ME AND MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIED AND CONTINUE HIS JOURNEY OF HUMAN RELOLUTION. 6. DERRICK TING, JUN HONG AND OTHER FD STUDENTS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES AND START TO PRACTICE THE BUDDHISM. I MUST PULL THAT DERRICK TING & JUN HONG TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER IN THE FUTURE. 7. I MUST GO TO THE TRIP IN CAMBODIA FOR THE TRIP HELPING THE NEEDYS OR TRAINING TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER. LEARNING AND HELPING THE POOR, KNOWING THEIR PAIN. 8. TARGETING TO HAVE 10 POINTS AND BELOW [SINGLE DIGIT] FOR MY O’LEVELS IN 2009. 9. KELVIN WONG, DE YUAN, ZHI JIE, MS WEE, LIPING AND BUDI MUST COME OUT FOR OUR ACTIVITIES. 10. THERE MUST BE A SUM OF MONEY TO DO MY KOSEN-RUFU NO MATTER I EARN IT OR OTHER SOURCE OF INCOME. 11. MISUNDERSTANDING AND PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE WITH MY FRIENDS ALL WILL BE DELETED. 12. HOMEVISITING STUDENTS MUST BE ABLE TO COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 13. THE FRIENDSHIP WITH MY NEW CLASSMATES NEXT YEAR MUSTN’T HAVE ANY COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS. 14. THE REPUTATION IN SOKA AND SCHOOL MUST BE VERY GOOD. NO COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS WITH MY PEERS AND OTHER PEOPLE. 15. TARGETING 19 FD STUDENTS IN MY FD MEETING & DISTRICT. 16. THIS YEAR ALL THE NON-ACTIVE FD MEMBERS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 17. EVERYONE WILL BE STRUGGLING WITH OBSTACLES AND PROBLEMS AND OVERCOME THEM. 18. THERE WILL BE MORE POTENTIAL ICs COMING TO HELP FD. - - - - HOPE ALL THIS WILL COME TRUE - - - - ++ the old files ++2007-07-08++2007-07-22++2007-07-29++2007-08-05++2007-08-12++2007-08-19++2007-09-02++2007-09-09++2007-10-14++2007-11-11++2007-11-25++2007-12-02++2007-12-09++2007-12-23++2007-12-30++2008-01-06++2008-01-13++2008-02-03++2008-02-10++2008-02-17++2008-02-24++2008-03-02++2008-03-09++2008-03-16++2008-03-23++2008-05-25++2008-06-01++2008-06-22++2008-06-29++2008-07-06++2008-07-13++2008-07-20++2008-08-03++2008-08-17++2008-08-24++2008-08-31 ++ network neighborhood chocbanana[trixieandtheresa]++ supports ++ display "w4rnawarni : the computer (ADFree)" designed by : w4rnawarni @ blogskins - do not remove this part! |