THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WHEN WE HOST ACTIVITIES FOR FLINT, DILLON DIDN'T CAME, I WAS WONDERING -- WHY HE DIDN'T COME, WHAT HE IS DOING AT HOME?
A LOT OF WHY AND WHY...
I WAS THINKING A LOT, AND THE FUNNY THING IS FOR SO LONG I HAVE ONLINE, I DIDN'T SEE HIM ONLINE FOR SO MANY DAYS. SELDOM SEEING HIM ONLINE AND SELDOM TALKING TO HIM NOW. VERY AFRAID.... SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN LIKE JUSTIN AND JIAN HAO.
DURING THIS OUTING, I THINK IS NOT A SUCCEED AS NOT MANY OF THEM TURN UP ONLY 6 TURNED UP. WHEN YOU HAVE LESSER PEOPLE ATTENDING SOMETHING YOU WILL FIND VERY BORING AND NOT INTERESTING. BUT I HAVE A LOT OF FUN, GOING TO MY BEST TRAIL IN THE FOREST NEAR SILSO BEACH.
BUT TODAY IS VERY STEADY, I WENT TO SENTOSA AT 9.00AM THEN I CAME BACK TO SCHOOL AT 12.00PM. ABOUT 2.00PM I WENT BACK TO SENTOSA AGAIN AND MEET THEM.
TODAY VERY SIAO... BUT WHEN PLAYING HALF WAY WHEN CYCLING, SUDDENLY DILLON AND SOME OTHER NAMES AND PLACES AND EVENTS CAME TO MY MIND. LIKE DURING THE FLINT TRAINING AND THE GROUP GETTING TOGETHER TO PLAY AS A GROUP ALL THIS TOUCHING AND YOU WILL CRY....
VERY HAPPY TO KNOW THIS FRIEND - DILLON.... MUST PRAY EVERYDAY ....
BUT 1 MORE THING THE STUPID ASH ON MY LAPTOP AND DIDN'T ON IT. NOW MY LAPTOP IS ON FEVER, VERY HEART PAIN. BUT I HAVE ENJOYED MYSELF TODAY
27/12/2007
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
BUT I CAN ASSURE THAT THIS IS MY NEGATIVE AND BAD KARMA THAT I HAVE MADE FORM MY PASSED LIFE AND MY THIS LIFE. (ALL THE THINGS AND WORDS I USED TO SCOLD IN MY PRIMARY SCHOOL LIFE AND ALL MY EVIL THINGS I HAVE DONE CAUSED ME TO HAVE ALL THIS BAD LUCK).
FIRST WHEN I WENT BACK TO SCHOOL. I KANA MR GOH SCOLDING... HE SAID "WHY DIDN'T COME TO HIS REMINDIAL AND WHY YOU NEVER DID YOUR HOMEWORK."
SECONDLY DURING THE TRAINING, ALL MY LOWER ARMS' SKILLS ARE LIKE SHIT... EVERY BALL I HIT ALL WENT OUT OR DIDN'T GO OVER... THEN KANA MY SENIOR SCOLDING.... I AM THERE CURSING AND SWEARING.
THIRDLY WHILE WE WERE LISTENING TO MR GOH TEACHING, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT IS HE TEACHING EVEN THOUGHT THE PROBLEM IS SO EASY, JUST CAN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT HE WAS TEACHING. WHEN HE WERE ASKING QUESTION, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ANSWER BACK.
FORTHLY I NEED TO GO TO TSC, BEFORE I GO OUT OF THE HOUSE I AM AT HOME ONLINE AND TALKING AND CHIT-CHATTING WITH MY FRIENDS. THEN I TOLD MYSELF I NEED TO CHANT BEFORE I STEP OUT OF MY HOUSE AS THIS MORNING I DIDN'T CHANT THEN I WENT OUT OF MY HOUSE.
WITHOUT MY SURPRISE I AM A "NATO" ALSO SO I DIDN'T CHANT AND WENT OUT SO I KANA A LOT OF THINGS. AND I KNOW IF I DON'T CHANT THERE WILL BE A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENING, ON ME AND MY FRIENDS.
FIFTHLY I KNOW WHEN I GO AND TAKE A BUS DOWN I WILL BE SURE LATE EVEN THOUGHT I WENT OUT VERY EARLY. BUT I WILL BE LATE SO I QUICKLY SMS MY FRIEND SEE WHETHER HE IS GOING OFF.
SUDDENLY, I WAS WAITING FOR BUS, I WAS LOOKING AROUNG AT TOA PAYOH BUS STOP TO MY SURPRISE I SAW KAIYANG MY BEST FRIEND. HE WAS WALKING WITH HIS FRIENDS LIKE TAKING CAB TO SOMEWHERE. I WAS HOLDING MY PHONE, WANTED TO CALL HIM THAT I SAW HIM, BUT SOMEONE TOLD ME IN MY MIND SAYING DON'T CALL HIM SEE WHETHER HE CAN SEE ME.
I WAS WONDERING, I AM WEARING MY JERSEY WITH MY NAME AT THE TOP, HE SURE CAN SEE.
HAHA I AM ABOSULTE WRONG HE DIDN'T SEE ME EVEN THOUGHT I WAS SITTING AT THE AILE SEAT OF THE BUS STOP. AND I AM A VERY IDOLT PERSON, I LIKE TO TEST PEOPLE SO I WAS TESTING HIM SEE WHETHER HE WILL ANSWER ME.
HAHA ALL THE IMAGINATION ARE WRONG, HE DIDN'T ANSWER ME AT ALL WHEN THEY REACHED THE BUS STOP. UNTIL THE BUS CAME AS I WAS BOARDING THE BUS HE THEN SAID "HEY WHY ARE YOU HERE."....
I WAS THERE CURSE AND SWEARING TO HIM AND EVEN THE GOHONZON. WHY I JUST REALLY FIND A TRUE FRIEND. ON THE BUS, I DIDN'T TALK A SINGLE SENTENCE TO HIM, I WAS SITTING JUST IN FRONT OF HIM, KEPT QUIET FOR THE WHOLE JOURNEY UNTIL REACHED TSC.
GOHONZON I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO? WHY I NEED TO KANA THIS KIND OF THINGS. PLEASE HELP ME SOLVE THIS PROBLEM?
Monday, December 24, 2007
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT.DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY, THEY HAD ANARGUMENT; AND ONE FRIENDSLAPPED THE OTHER ONEIN THE FACE.
Finally after so long I start to blog again... this holiday almost ending and I find it very useful for me as I have learn a lot of things.
1.How to treat people well?
2.How to become a better person by saying sorry, thank you, welcome and other good manners stuff.
3.How to be a great leader.
4.How to get things start a new day of life and
5.How to end a day happily.
All this things are learn from my ICs and other people in my association and my friends...
During this holiday there are a couple of things happening...
Like the following:
1. Volleyball camp
2. Flint chalet
3. Exchange SSA with SGM
4. Hiking with the chief from Macritchie to Bukit Timah hill top.
5. Eileen’s wedding
All this things are learn from the ICs and friends in all sort of level. I really need to thanks to them giving me a chance to change over me and making me a great leader.
(1) During the volleyball camp, I learn one thing: that is everybody must have the teamwork in order to finish the task. The chalet there is a part where everyone will be spilt in to groups and we are going to play amazing race. This is the 1 time I play amazing race that I need to go and take a bus to reach the venue. Most of the time we play in particular place and the game will end very quickly. From the game I have learnt how to care about group members. When someone is wrong as group members or group leaders we can’t blame them instead we teach them not to repeat the same mistake this is what I learnt from the camp.
During this holiday, Everything I join or I participated in I will sure learn something from it. So I am very happy what I joined even thought I joined a lot of things until my mum scolded me but I very happy to learn a lot of things and I can reflect myself.
(2) Just after my volleyball camp, just the next day I have my flint chalet and this chalet is the first time I being an organiser. Being an organiser is not so easy you must know when to have the game and where to have it. This is a great challenge for me to know all the people’s character at the same time so that I won’t offence anyone when playing the game.
During this chalet there are a lot of things happening. One of them is my problem. This problem always can’t solve in me since I am born. That is when my friend go with other friend I will get jealous but I won’t do anything to hurt that person neither my friend. And that person a lot of people know is Dillon.
He is the only friend I won’t hate. In this chalet really I learnt a lot of things from him and I know him much deeper. He is really.... some sort of guys. I won’t say anything out...
But from this chalet, I have learnt a lot of things not in Buddhism neither in friendship or other things... but something we need to learn that is helping each other even thought that person is not close to you.
(3) The exchange with SSA and SGM this is one of thing, this holiday I am looking forward to. In here, I and not only I learn a lot of things like my ICs and other flint students learn a lot of things. But I think I learn the most.
Just now I told you I jealous when my friend get to another person. From this trip I learn how to deal with this problem. When your friends get away from you there is a reason behind it. During the trip someone (I am not going to say that person). First day, he was very close to me then after that he kept me from a distance and go with another friend I know. From here, I learnt that when this kind of situation the only solution is to change your prayer and pray hard to the Gohonzon when you are chanting.
This trip can say that we learnt that their spirit of theirs really touches us. And how they treat us with the kindness really want to make us cry in front of them. When we left we are so sad and still want to stay over for 1 more night but next day everyone still needs to go back to school or go to work. So there is no choice but to go back to Singapore.
(4) The second last thing I did in this holiday was going to hiking with Ghee Han our FD chief. I thought this hiking will have a lot of people taking part but on that day just 4 person including Ghee Han turn up for that event so quite shocking. This hiking really let me know more about Ghee Han and Sam.
(5) The last activity I joined this year was this. I can said that a lot of roles in Soka I have played before only this for so long I want to open today come true. It is to open the bustdan. I always enjoyed people opening and closing the bustdan but I want to try to open it. It is very fun and interesting to open when people are chatting to open their Buddha world. This is my very great fortune to do that.
So I told you all my holiday is very interesting and packed with a lot of happy and sad things as days go by. And everything I learnt from all the activities I learnt from there I will make use of them and my starting chapter of my life that is 2008 and merry Christmas everyone.
Hope to have a wonderful year in 2008
Celine and Me at Eileen's Wedding
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nickname: monkeykorkor ,
Name: Ko Kar Meng (19)
Age: 15 years old
Date of Birth: March1 1993
Horoscope Sign: PIECES, of course.
class:3c
school:NTPS, BMSS.
colour:OSPREY
likes:IT stuff
1. I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE IN THE PAST ALL THE NEGATIVE ACTIONS AND WORDS. THANK YOU FOR GOHONZON FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH GOOD BENEFITS IN THE PRESENCE.
2. FOR MY STUIDES IN 2008 & 2009 MUST BE THE BEST IN ORDER FOR ME TO SHOW THE POWER OF THE MYSTIC LAW- GOHONZON. I MUST GET TOP TEN IN POSITION IN MY CLASS LEVEL AND SCORE THE BEST FOR MYSELF.
3. DILLON NG YAN YANG MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME AND TREAT ME BETTER.
4. KAIYANG AND BUDI MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIENDS. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME.CALVIN CHONG CAN BE MY BEST FRIEND AND HE MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES.
5. CALVIN CHEONG MUST NOT BE ANGRY WITH ME AND MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIED AND CONTINUE HIS JOURNEY OF HUMAN RELOLUTION.
6. DERRICK TING, JUN HONG AND OTHER FD STUDENTS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES AND START TO PRACTICE THE BUDDHISM. I MUST PULL THAT DERRICK TING & JUN HONG TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER IN THE FUTURE.
7. I MUST GO TO THE TRIP IN CAMBODIA FOR THE TRIP HELPING THE NEEDYS OR TRAINING TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER. LEARNING AND HELPING THE POOR, KNOWING THEIR PAIN.
8. TARGETING TO HAVE 10 POINTS AND BELOW [SINGLE DIGIT] FOR MY O’LEVELS IN 2009.
9. KELVIN WONG, DE YUAN, ZHI JIE, MS WEE, LIPING AND BUDI MUST COME OUT FOR OUR ACTIVITIES.
10. THERE MUST BE A SUM OF MONEY TO DO MY KOSEN-RUFU NO MATTER I EARN IT OR OTHER SOURCE OF INCOME.
11. MISUNDERSTANDING AND PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE WITH MY FRIENDS ALL WILL BE DELETED.
12. HOMEVISITING STUDENTS MUST BE ABLE TO COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES.
13. THE FRIENDSHIP WITH MY NEW CLASSMATES NEXT YEAR MUSTN’T HAVE ANY COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS.
14. THE REPUTATION IN SOKA AND SCHOOL MUST BE VERY GOOD. NO COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS WITH MY PEERS AND OTHER PEOPLE.
15. TARGETING 19 FD STUDENTS IN MY FD MEETING & DISTRICT.
16. THIS YEAR ALL THE NON-ACTIVE FD MEMBERS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES.
17. EVERYONE WILL BE STRUGGLING WITH OBSTACLES AND PROBLEMS AND OVERCOME THEM.
18. THERE WILL BE MORE POTENTIAL ICs COMING TO HELP FD.
- - - - HOPE ALL THIS WILL COME TRUE - - - -
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